41st Birthday yesterday

I have read again a letter from my mother that was sent last year, for my 40th birthday.

She said, in her letter, I should have "Que ce sera sera mind". I remind the words deeply inside now.

Why she said so, because I've been troubled with my sick, melancholia. Almost it's better than the worst time, but I still have been consult my doctor. And at this hard situation, the words "Que ce sera sera" sounds wonderful for me.

In the song, the words are continued. "The future's not our to see, que ce sera sera. What will be will be". At a glanse, it seems there's nothing to do getting the world better for us, but I don't think so. We can DO THINGS WHAT JUST WE CAN BY OURSELVES NOW, I think.

I will NEVER forget 2 million yens from Afganistan, they are still hungrer than us, maybe.

I will NEVER forget peoples going the power station sites to keep these sites and us healthy.

Somebody may thought that I'm far off the mark. Yes, I've been doubting safety of nuclear power stations about 25 years, but I've done nothing rather than using electric power. I'm afraid the damages effect on my country economics and the world's ecology. But I (can) DO THE THINGS WHAT I CAN DO THE BEST NOW. I will do so, untill I'll die.

Fortunatelly, I don't have any child, I'll use tapped water as before. I'll buy vegetables from East north area.

I'm fool, yes, but I'm trying to learn about radiation, to keep cool and calm myself, also to inform others what I know. Especially foreighners who can't get informations in Japanese. 

My mom, in that letter, said also, "I'm glad you were born as my daughter". Thanks mom. It's my pleasure to be your daughter also.

I appreciate, also, producers and incubators of the internets and twitter and Facebook and and and every tools I use to communicate to the world. ありがとう！